Is it destined for some to be alone.
As it is for some to have so many who loves him.
When you sneeze does she bless you.
Is it that you are not blessed because of who you are, maybe the way you look. does she think you are too ugly to be blessed. Maybe so but even tho it hurts to think that way.
The who you could not possibly change even if you wanted to more than anything in the world.
I am alone. In a darkness. In a void and afraid.
I thought i found love, but I lied to myself that it was because I had never found it before.
For once in my life I have come to accept this possible fate. even though i may never have believed in it in the first place.
I can't the pain.
It sinks so deep it makes you insane.
No one to bother, no one to be bothered by you.
She left me so at the lowest of my low.
Shes probably pregnant with another mans child.
The thought of this hurts so much it drives my mind wild.
Not feeling like a man, but still as a child.
Ive never felt this way before. So tore constantly feeling numb.
Thinking to myself that everyone thinks I am dumb.